library thing

hey, i get to review a book... Siberian Education by Nicolai Lilin  i'm quite excited and can't wait to get it. sorry dylan and dani are sick. looks like i won't get littleman. very bummed. let's see ok, maybe i'll post some old crap i wrote 10-20 years ago.....

shit and now i can't find them. probably threw them out when i was cleaning, done it before %*%&^$
they were actually not to bad too. have something a bit more recent but not as good. crap, disappointed again..lets see...
it sucks because they were shorter poem types and songs that were really quite good and they are nowhere so probably gone. they were the ones i read and thought wow, these are pretty good. the ones i have now have good parts but not so much overall but here's one anyway...

k this one is called "Brocken Prophecy"....

I'm fallin' and broken
with nowhere to go
The breath that's inside me
has now stopped to flow

The jagged pieces are falling
straight through my heart
With so little left
how do they hit the mark

Oceans of  living
and depth of pain
clouds all forgotten
never to rain

nowhere to go... but into the depth
the ancients bowed down... but then only wept
the heavens have closed... the angels have slept
feeling the sand giving way... as the nothingness crept
    The nothings not empty and it never ends
    You choke and you bleed, you'll never pretend

The clock strikes 13th hour
The sun is now dark
and that would be heaven
compared to my heart

posting writting

I just wanted to say, mostly in case i forget and do it anyway. I was telling mudder just thursday that i had run into some stuff i wrote like in my twenties i think. that i was thinking of posting them every now and againish. but now ben has done it. not only is his so way much better, i don't want him to think i was copy-ing him. just thought i'd through that out there.
oh and ben, i watched a movie called "Wild Target"... loved it. just a simply little comedy that so reminded me of you. i mean that like myself you would probably really apprciate the humor. not roll on the floor funny but subtle frickin funny, you know?
anyway, later.

Pictures

ok, this is so in a rough draft stage.. also i don't have pics of the whole family, or on computer joanna jeff and rayne together so this is make do for the time.

again thanks mudder, couldn't make it without you!

koast the wave

this picture makes me want to be out there so bad... (my profile pic not the background)... i've written about 20 times to describe the feeling but i realize you can't. you have to know it. and once you do, you never wanna come back in. it makes you just be.